josh moving in with me, relationship, mornings

i wake up so late on the weekends; i sleep and sleep and wake up with the sun hitting me. i hug the pillow, i grip the sheets, i am alone.
i drink coffee, and have a morning snack. "what do i have to do today? what do i have to accomplish? what time is it in maui? how much longer until josh is awake.?"
i think having a boy friend that lives in a different state is awful for so many reasons, but at my young vuneralbe age i also think its nice. having josh around for a month and then being seperated a month and a half is good for us. it makes us evaluate our realtionship, have our independence, show eachother how we care for eachother in less then obvious ways. you cant hug and kiss somenoe over the phone or interent, you have to express things so much deeper.
i think the distance is good for both of our education. josh not going to the same highschool as me creates no drama. had josh been going to the same school as me, things would be harder, people would say this or that, and we'd both be distracted by eachother.
i have something to look forward too, and something to set goals around because hes not so close, we have to work on the realtionship now, so when hes living with me things will seem so much easier.
im happy josh and i are going to live with my parents for a couple of years. it gives us a chance to get used to eachother, it gives us a chance to not be so concerned with money, and bills.
i have been looking at furniture we will need to share in our bedroom (my parents have agreed to rent a house with an apartment if they can, if not josh and i are going to share one bedroom). we need a full sized matress (i only have a twin). a headboard, bookselves and a desk. Ikea has the perfect desk for us. two people can fit on it, facing eachother. :)
doing this is making me happy. im currently thinkig of things i dont really need anymore so that the room wont just be my things.